"I tossed and turned. Finally around 3 I got up and went to the bathroom. And what did I do? Yup, I took another test. It was positive too.
Now I am feeling very scared. Excited too but so scared that now I am crying. I didn't have any idea how I was going to tell Rex. And I was very nervous what his reaction would be.
I needed to talk to someone. Rex is who I wanted but he was on call and I didn't want to discuss things over the phone. The only person I knew who might be awake at 4am was Ginny. (A very good friend and fellow navy intern's wife). So after a few more tears I called her. She's good to talk to. She helped to calm me down and reassured me about telling Rex. After getting off the phone with her I got up and got ready for work and went in early. There I had another urine test and a blood test done. Positive and positive. You'd think as an ob nurse I'd believe it already but I was still freaking out.
All I could think about was how to tell Rex. It was our anniversary and he was post call. All day at work I worried and fretted over it. The other nurses could tell something was going on with me. It was a slow day and Mrs A ( a wonderful and hilarious filipino nurse) let me leave early to 'talk' to Rex.
He was asleep in bed when I got home. I woke him up and we discussed whether we should go out or stay in. I suggested we go out but open anniversary gifts first.
I made him close his eyes because I hadn't had time to wrap his sword. He liked it. (Its the naval officer sword and he'd been eyeing it a long time). He played around with it for a few minutes. Then I took it back. (I figured it was safer for me to have the sword when I told him this next part)
I made him close his eyes again telling him I just got this gift on short notice. I told him that when he opened his eyes he should say hello to his baby. So he opens his eyes, looks at me and says hello. I knew he hadn't got my drift. I looked at him for the longest time with a goofy grin on my face. I thought he'd read my mind but he didn't. Like I said, he was post call which is similar to being brain dead.
' You don't get it' I said. I patted my belly and said 'baby'. He still looked at me blankly until I said 'your baby'. Then the blank look turned to shock and my heart stopped for a minute. But he took me in his arms and my heart started beating again. 'Are you sure?' He asked. I had to go get the stack of pregnancy tests for him to see. He chuckled a little and I could tell it was starting to sink in.
The first thing he actually said after several minutes was 'siemper gumby'. Now I thought he was losing it again. He kept laughing to himself and picked up the phone to call one of his staff doctors, Dr. Shaughnessy. I think because of the shock his priorities were a little messed up.
But Dr. Shaughnessy had known that I was pregnant. He'd let me order my tests under his name. Rex liked him a lot and I had asked him to keep an eye on Rex at work. I didn't know how he'd take the news and I knew he was stressed already.
It turns out that Dr. Shaughnessy had a heart to heart with Rex earlier today. Siemper Gumby is a made up Marine saying that means 'always flexible'. Rex didn't understand the talk until finding out about my pregnancy. That has become our motto and our little fetus is fondly referred to as Gumby now. "
We went out with our friends Lou and Ginny that night. Over dinner we talked and laughed about becoming parents ( they were expecting twins in June). When we got home Rex said he was happy and that made me happy.
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